Let everything happen to you, beauty and terror. Just keep going. – Rainer Maria Rilke
Day 14 brought me face to face with something that is a challenge for me: letting go and letting life flow without resistance or effort. I can honestly say that I have gotten better, tremendously better, over the last few years more than I have at any other point in my life. I’m okay with change and feel like I’m able to adapt fairly quickly, but it’s not knowing what the plan is, how I will get someplace or achieve something, etc. that I have difficulty finding peace with.
Maybe it’s all interconnected and part of the whole; today’s message of the day reinforced that living in the flow is a state of consciousness and the natural consequence of being self-aware in the moment. I feel as if I am highly self-aware but maybe…I could stand to be more so. The day’s journal prompts really got me thinking, and I wanted to share my thoughts with all of you. It was said that change is inevitable but arouses mixed feelings – I agree. We were asked to write down five things that are changing or about to change in my life, picking things that I feel anxious or uncertain about. Then, jotting down three ways to make these changes easier and more acceptable. Here goes:
- Transitioning to a new career
- Moving almost 3,000 miles from my home town, family and friends
- Starting a new life, in a new city with my boyfriend
- Leaving my current team of health professionals & finding new doctors
- Not being able to see family and friends as frequently
Believe it or not, this list was hard to write. Although I fear things like most people, I try to be conscious about where I allocate my energy and I think I wasn’t allowing myself to sit fully in the discomfort I feel about all of the items on my list. So, there’s the list – it’s real and it’s all going to happen. Now, to explore how I can make these changes more fluid and manageable:
- Continue to meditate and have faith in myself
- Recognize and identify who I have by my side and their strengths
- Shift my mindset and believe that what is appropriate for me on my life’s path will be revealed and I will be provided for
Expanding on these two prompts, came the third: thinking ahead, what is the single greatest contribution I want to make in the next phase of my life, in five to ten years? I am deeply moved by helping other people. I have always said that a life goal would be to own a wellness center for people to come and heal their minds, bodies and spirits. A place where they feel safe, accepted and appreciated. Where they are free to just be or transform themselves and their lives in the ways that nourish them. That is the legacy I desire to leave. Maybe this is my stage of transformation and time is the vehicle I need to allow me to get to where I aim to be…good food for thought.
We do love hearing from you – leave us a comment and tell us what you think of today’s post as well the overall experience so far! This is the last meditation experience of 2017: Making Every Moment Matter hosted by Deepak Chopra and Oprah Winfrey via the Chopra Center Meditation organization.
